silence #7

is
it in silence,
that we learn
to grieve well?
to weep completely?
to find Your deepest
heart, Lord?

is this why You have
made
our nights to be so
quiet?

is
the night-silence
a place
where Your hearts speaks
most clearly?

why
is it that so many
other voices are so
loud?

fill our silence
with
Your heart.
You
will satisfy.

silence #6

is
that what our conversation
is?
really?

is it
You
turning to us
so deeply that our hearts
cry
with words not
speakable
or
hearable?

is
it You, Lord,
Who has planted so
deep
in us this need to
talk with You?

is
grief one of the
surest roads to You?

do our tears
begin
in our hearts
only
after You weep them
first?

could
this be true?

silence #5

pages
turned on the dial
of our lives
by Your hand
bring no sense...
no words
readable with our
eyes...
or hearable
if even they could be
spoken.

the only words
we can truly hear
come
from inside us.
yet
even those
deep-inside words...
where do they come from?

did they begin
elsewhere?

in Your deep-inside,
Lord?

silence #4

since
You are not talking
in words
we can hear...
we listen in
vain...
or do we?

if
You have no hearable
words
for our ears, Lord...

are there any
words?
at all?
any where?
ever?

silence #3

the heavens
shine day & night
with
no answer...
light
is all they can say.
light
is their language...
&
ours is life.

Your heavens
shine out the silence
so loudly we
cringe.

broken
we rest.

waiting.

silence #2

why?

is there a reason
good enough?
or
big enough?
at all
understandable?

intelligence
&
wisdom fall short
in any answer
they can give.

words.
endless words
are not enough.
either.

still
we ask, "Why?"
"Why, Lord?"

silence #1

frightened
she almost wants to scoop
him up
&
run away
from the cancer
they say he carries
inside
his 4-year-old body.

flesh
from her flesh
heart
of her heart
he is too dear
to lose.
ever.

so
she won't.