at the end
of 33 years of following Your Abba
the tangle of our sin-shattered world
our mangled lives
our broken bodies
our over-powered spirits
always giving in...to Your Abba's leading...
after the dark-of-night-struggle
with the enormous bulk of our sin-load...
after never really considering DIS-obeying
Your Abba's lead...
for another way
for any other alternative...
until the dark descended like a midnight
on Your heart & ours.
the heart that always listened first
the soul that always watched Your Abba
for a clue before acting...
pushed thru the DARKest DARK
to offer up Your Own Spirit
to Your for--the-first-time-ever silent Abba